STILL
There's a silence when I breath
Almost the silence of water, the
silence of trees
I hear it inside me
A constant hush
My heart beats just
In a tin drum way
A warning to slow down
To keep at bay those reactions that bubble under
my skin
I'm always slow and quite on the
outside
Timid she calls me
I remember walking along the lake
with her when we first met
The surface of the lake was
frozen with a thin layer of ice
She said, "you are just like
this lake,
still, calm, cold and unmoving"
She didn't notice complex patterns
frosting the ice
Chaotic currents under the
surface
She should have realised
Instead, I smiled at her
innocence
We watched pink dust sink the day
behind clouds
The pylons in the skyline
betraying the calm
Now she spends her time worrying
all my worries
Fearing my fears
Whilst her own are self contained
Growing old , being alone
Forgetting herself, forgetting me
She takes photographs of her
reflection in the mirror
'December 15th 2006'
'January 22nd 2011'
'May 10th 2016'
'Today'
She wants me to remember these
moments
All the days we screwed, all the
days we didn't
All the days we argued, all the
days we didn't
All the days we cried, we never
did
It isn't the dates she might
forget
Or what happened, or where she
was
It's her own self
Her feelings
It's the way I stamp myself
across all her memories
Changing them from 'Me' to 'Us'
From 'I' to 'We'
Sometimes she screams
A noise raging from the pit of
her belly
Gathering speed and nearly
leaving her
But she strangles it in her
throat just in case
She breathes her silence
