Just Like Always

I lay on my pillow
Not talking to anyone
Watching you
Always unprepared

I made a mistake
Everything I love, I lose
I want to win
Start again

I want to come to you
Make you laugh
Wrap you up
Take you home

Looking for somewhere to stand and stay
Leaning on the wall
My head turned the wrong way
Unable to see you,
Just like always

I dreamed about you
I miss you
I better get my shit together
Start anew
Not to be nervous and hold you

I'm so sorry for everything