Liverpool

Rules and regulations or even mere social rules serve to curb us and my meaningful words can never be curbed. I think of you and only you.

As we sat in Korova in Liverpool I could not take my eyes off you, those dark eyes as she chatted. I could not look away from her animated mouth, her lips astound me. I was lost completely in the infectious good spirits of everything she had to say sometimes without even hearing the words she actually said.

I don't deserve her.

I hate it when someone says 'do you like her then'? Like her??!! What an insult. How can anyone just like her? What kind of person could just like her? What kind of person could not be completely fulfilled by her? I know I am. I'm still quite astonished really about how I got into this. It was step by step, with my eyes wide open I saw the whole thing so clearly and even my condition. I still maintain that there's been no improvements. I'm still what she makes me.

Light in pocket but rich in heart would probably best describe me at that moment and I do genuinely believe that our hearts alone can give us happiness. I get to see her today and I don't have another wish for the next 24 hours. Everything is lost in this one anticipation!

She sometimes reproaches me for my excessiveness but how else could I possibly be around her? As we sat innocently on a bus I could not help but be in awe of her. I wish somehow I could say all of this to her face but for some unknown reason I sat there restless biting my tongue thinking of how to say it.

I sit alone, longing for her even now. I am excited to to see her again. I have not exaggerated any of this or over sentimentalised it. I have told it all in my own terms. This love, loyalty and passion are therefore no fragments of my imagination . Yes it has happened to me. We will be together for a long period - well that's certainly my wish. Today, as I write this all down, all is quiet within me, you can see that by my handwriting, I am not scribbling.

The minor indifference's come between magical times and the most cherished hours are spent in her arms. My love I scrawl at dawn and I cannot wait for patience.

Come back to me - I live in joyous anticipation of your return.

I will never look at Liverpool the same again.